F E E L I N G N A K E D

Guys have you ever felt naked without actually being naked?!

Because I have. I've actually been feeling that way lately and I'm starting to even like it. 😳 

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Time to grow in so many new wayssssssss. Give me all your hair growth tips!!!!

Time to grow in so many new wayssssssss. Give me all your hair growth tips!!!!

 

 

GUYS, I ABRUPTLY CUT MY HAIR AGAIN. (Those who know me, know that I tend to do this) and I think this makes me feel even more vulnerable! I cut it because I want my naturally dark hair back. I don't want to be bleached anymore 😫 I'm feeling a pull to be more real in all ways. Even if that means I don't love my hair at the moment, or that it doesn't exactly flatter me in the way that I want it to. I'm letting go of superficiality, and diving deeper into what's within. It's also perfectly aligned with the changing Fall season :) I love when that happens, don't you? 

This is me trying to hide but clearly failing :')

This is me trying to hide but clearly failing :')

Anyways, I’m coming to terms with the fact that the people I’m around are very intuitive and can see me for who I am… therefore THERE IS NO USE IN HIDING OR PRETENDING TO BE SOMETHING THAT I’M NOT. They're also very loving, supportive, and understanding... SO AGAIN. NO REASON TO HIDE. *sighs and melts into a puddle fo vulnerability and vegan macaroons* My fear of not wanting to be seen comes from the fear & belief that I'm not good enough. (Sidenote, RIP Louise Hay!! SO grateful for your work here on earth. Louise Hay post coming soon!) The truth is I am sooooo much more than I give myself credit for. 

I'm really happy and excited to connect with my spirit!! I'm not even 100% sure what that means, LOL. Which is OK because we just launched a SPIRIT Playlist on our YouTube channel specifically for that reason :) Check it out here.  It's time for me to go into the depths of my psyche, time for me to connect with my body, my spirit. I'M ALREADY DOING IT. I had a twerking lesson the other day and guess how I felt? That's right. Naked. Vulnerable. And also? GREAT! The next day my back was super sore from moving in new ways. I'm so happy you guys are here with me on this journey. Can you guys relate? Leave a comment, let's connect. =) Love you all so much, x

Oh and please. Get naked. Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. For the love of yourself, for the love of vegan caramel chocolate marshmallow macaroons.... DO IT. Do it and let me know what magic happens ✨🔮 

 

Dear Lover

Dear Lover,

It’s August 2017 and I get distracted easily. I have a hard time with self discipline and being soft with myself. I’m still learning how to fully love myself so there isn’t much I can really offer you right now… besides the dedication of learning to love me—so we can then share love that is free, love that real and abundant. THE REAL THING. I know it’s possible. I know it’s going to take work. I’m willing to go through it because this is something I want to experience for *me*. I want to know and experience what a loving, healthy relationship between 2 whole people is like, with the knowledge that those 2 whole people also have love for others and that is perfectly normal and beautiful. And I want to experience what building a family between those is like. I want to know what it’s like to raise healthy children.

I’m realizing more and more that this requires a very direct amount of inwardness and focus. It requires surrender. I don’t know what the future brings but I know what I can do to make it beautiful, to live the life I want.

Lover, there’s love all around me but its been so hard for me to see it, breathe it in, appreciate it. I think it’s because I can’t appreciate the love outside if I can’t appreciate, acknowledge or even see the love inside of me. I’m feeling a call to go super inward. It seems other people is really not where its at for me right now. Music makes me happy. Writing makes me happy. Having a clean organized home makes me happy. Hugs make me happy too… Kisses make me happy too. But I think sometimes I go to them as a distraction from the void I feel inside & that’s not cool.

It’s time to step up to the plate of whats being demanded of me for my work, and for myself. I got thissssss. <3

my first blog post //

if i’m being completely honest, a lot of my self esteem is reliant upon Isaac. And if i delve even deeper, there are attachments described in the form of “what would i do without him? i need him in my life to be happy. i can’t accomplish what i want in life without him.” i don’t love or like myself or even see value in myself but isaac is with me so there must be something there. my self esteem and sense of self worth is shot y’all. before meeting isaac i was seeing a 51 year old man. (more on this another time!) i would look at couples around my age and think i’m not worthy of that, and there was no way in my mind that a guy i really liked and was attracted to would be interested in me. i didn’t really have many friends, especially not the type of friends i wanted. (i still don’t but i’m working on it.)

i’ve been wanting to start a blog for a while now and i haven’t because i feel like i am really late to the “game”. lots of people start things with the intention of doing it just for themselves and i’d be lying if i said that.i’m doing this for me yes, but i want this to grow. i want millions of people reading it who receive great value from it. maybe its an ego thing more than a genuinely wanting to help people thing. the truth is though it really is more for me than it is for anyone else. i started my youtube channel a few months back and it isn’t going as i had hoped.. its so much easier for me to be clear, thoughtful, and direct on paper (or in this case, on keyboard) than with verbal words. I want to explore this, and really delve into my writing, as it’s probably one of my biggest natural talents. This doesn’t mean I won’t do youtube! But i’m super excited to see where this takes me, and what insights i gain from writing again.

I’ll also mention a bit about Sharon Stays Sharing. So the purpose behind that is to share (duh). “Share WHAT??” you ask? Share my life, my insights, my past, my struggles, MY HEALING JOURNEY AS RAW AND VULNERABLE as I can + want. This means I’ll speak about taboo shit, uncomfortable shit. It means I’ll be sharing videos I recorded in super vulnerable moments. I feel the NEED to do this for my sanity, for my peace. As i mentioned before, first and foremost it is for me. Secondly, its for those who resonate with it and who may need it. What i share here and what i will share is for the sake of my expression, and freedom. As I express myself and free up, I believe it will help others to do the same. I know I’ve been inspired by that.

it’s 5:20am and time for BED but I’m so glad I finally did this! woo hoo. Subscribe to my blog! Is that how this works? lol someone helppp

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